Death

..Death was beautiful within your arms..
..Death was shining star in your eyes..
..Death was angel that took my life..
..Death was end to begin a new start..
..Death was peaceful sleep forever..

Moonlit confession

In this moonlit night
I have one long confession
lingering my heart from a long time
It's time to free it and let it to your heart
before this poised moon hide behind hazy clouds
I have something deep within to tell you aloud
beneath this beautiful face you see everyday
is a devil rising high everyday
strangling me from telling you truth
from day I say you on that busy train
I had spent many sleepless nights
I still wonder how one fine day
destiny fall on my ground
and took me to your world
your charming smile steal my heart
we sail so long on the ship called friendship
holding tears when nights were dark
shedding each other under sunny days
you penetrated deep inside my soul
knocked down my hidden window
stole my darkest fear
molded me into what I am today
how hours turn to days and days to years
I never realized until that day
when I saw you with someone, so close
my heart ripped out of my chest
tears spilled out of my eyes
I felt sudden pain that choked me so long
right from that day I realized
how will I feel if I loose you someday
my world was upside down
I turned back to look at past
not a second passed without your thought
I kept moving thinking you were all mine
but I broke down when reality hit me hard
these scars still bleed many time
then took some transformation
and my feelings changed for you that night
I cheat you on your scared ship
I crossed my barriers of being your friend
new dream built around in my eyes
where you were there for me every time
dreaming about you when I woke up
I found love standing at my door
hiding it I moved so far with you
but now it seemed I am failing
to hide it any more
so under this vast dark sky
I am standing here to confess
that till this waves rise and fall
till this moon shine in that sky
I will love you...I will love you..
I know you may not love me back
but I can't stop loving you now
and its getting deeper day by day
It's not your fault that I landed up here
but It also true I can't hold it anymore
I can never be same friend of yours
I can never love you the way you want
now its upto to your whether you want me
or throw me out of your life:(

..Moon..

मैं सोचती थी हर वक्त गुजारने की
उसके साथ जो आसमान पर बैठा है
सितारों के भीच मुस्कुराता रहता है
मैं चाहती थी उन सितारों को जलाने की
जो गुरुर करते है उसके साथ होने का
फिर क्या था एक दिन पूछ लिया
"क्या कुछ पल गुजार सकते हो मेरे साथ "
वोह शोक से चला आया मेरे पास
और जब सितारों का गुरुर तोर्ड़ने के लिए
आसमान को देखा तो हैरान हो गई
उस अंधेरे को देख कर
मानो खामोश सा होगया हो सब
जिन सितारों से जलती थी मैं
आज वोह जैसे अँधेरी वादियों मैं घूम से हो गए हो
मैं बहुत धूकी हुई
यह देख कर वोह बोला
क्यो खुश नही तुम मुझे पाकर
भीगी हुई पलकों को उठा कर कहाँ
जब तुम वहां आसमान पर थे
हजारो सितारे तुम्हारी
रौशनी मैं टिमटिमाते थे मुस्कुराते थे
और मैं सोचती थी जलाते है मुझे
पर आज जाना
अपने किस्मत सवारने के लिए
हजारों की किस्मत को रुसवा कर दिया मैंने
जाओ ..तुम वापस जाओ
मैं तो ज़मीन पर रह कर भी
तुम्हारी रौशनी मैं रहूंगी
पर अगर तुम यहाँ रहे
तो हजारों सितारे गुमराह हो जायेंगे
यह सुन कर वोह मुस्कुराते हुए
उन सितारों के भीच पहुच गया
और उसके जाते ही फिर से
हजारों सितारे टिमटिमाते हुए
अपनी शर्माती हुई आँखें खोले
सारे आसमान पर छा गए
मैं भी मुस्कुराते हुए उस
चाँद पर नाज़ करती हू
उसकी रौशनी मैं जलते हुए
हर सितारे पर नाज़ करती हू
और उस पर जो रोशन करता है
हम सब को अपनी रौशनी से

P.s. Framed up some where in starting of year 2004

..how com...

lips touched and
hearts melted within the warm hug
dreams heaped their eyes
time halted there right
air stood silent
stars hide inside the dark curtains
clouds encircled their emotions
dropped tears from their eyes
moon blinked,trees whispered
all gathered on that lonely street
eagerly watched as their soul united
rain came happily down pouring them
thunder and lightning danced in complete bliss
their eyes opened as the warmth raised heights
realizing what they did in haste
they moved apart with eyes wide
their lips stammered
how com , they came so close
breaking all barriers of world
ashamed and guilt lingered their heart
speechless hiding their face
they turned back slowly
moved away as if they did some crime
leaving behind the trace of moment
that prevailed love within their hearts
just for a while

P.s. Sometimes we never realize what we left behind was the world best thing

..broken wings..

..I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..with pieces of shattered dreams in hands..

..my tears drenched my soul..

.. and my failure broke me whole..

..like a looser I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..I saw the sun smiling..

..I saw the birds creeping..

..I saw the flowers blooming,I saw the people roaming..

..no one looked at me with the broken wings in my hands..

..I looked at seventh sky from where I fall..

..so high above I reached and fall..

..I am all broke will I reach there again..

..A drop fall from my eye on my hand..

..smiled at me,"You already know how to reach there again"

..I opened my broken wings to give a last try..

..it pained a lot and it hurt a lot..

..wings opened in the vast sky..

..inhaled the air of hope..flapped higher..

..and I was flying again I was smiling again..

..I always knew how to reach there..

..then why I feared just because I fall..

..then why I felt I couldn't fly again..

..I turned back to look at the window..

..where now laid broken pieces of my fear...

..now I am no more scared of my broken wings..

..I can fly high with my hope with my faith..

..I can fly high even with my broken wings..

..even with my broken wings..

Is it Love

Is it Love
When tears rollout
with a smile

Is it Love
When life swing
on a glance

Is it Love
When heart sinks
at the parting

Is it Love
When pain fears
no more

Is it Love
When mirror smile
every hour

Is it Love
When time run
so fast

Is it Love
When words struck
inside throat

Is it Love
When feet jump
above limits

Is it Love
When whole world
is beautiful

Is it Love
When you exclaim
"Is It Love!!!"

...Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main...

Har anjaan sa chera meri pehchan sa lagta hai,
Bheed main ghum na ho jaun is baat se darta hoon,
Duniya ki ajeeb si rasmo se pareshan sa rehta hoon,
Har girte kadmo ko thamne ka hosla rakhta hoon,
Sitaron ki chamak main chamkna chahta hoon,
Waise to andehra bhi hat jata hai raston se mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main,

Kabhi haar kar lehron main dubne sa lagta hoon,
Kabhi kinaron par baitha sukoon ki saans leta hoon,
Kisi ke sapno ko haqeekat banane ka sapna dekhta hoon,
Kadam ladkhda jatein hai to roshini ka haath thaam leta hoon,
Jo mord jis aor le jata hai usi aor murd jata hoon,
Waise to har Khawaish muthi main band hai mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main.