...Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main...

Har anjaan sa chera meri pehchan sa lagta hai,
Bheed main ghum na ho jaun is baat se darta hoon,
Duniya ki ajeeb si rasmo se pareshan sa rehta hoon,
Har girte kadmo ko thamne ka hosla rakhta hoon,
Sitaron ki chamak main chamkna chahta hoon,
Waise to andehra bhi hat jata hai raston se mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main,

Kabhi haar kar lehron main dubne sa lagta hoon,
Kabhi kinaron par baitha sukoon ki saans leta hoon,
Kisi ke sapno ko haqeekat banane ka sapna dekhta hoon,
Kadam ladkhda jatein hai to roshini ka haath thaam leta hoon,
Jo mord jis aor le jata hai usi aor murd jata hoon,
Waise to har Khawaish muthi main band hai mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main.

..Happy Birthday..

..Years after years moved on..!!!
..My flesh turned older each year...!!!
..But My soul is young as ever..!!!
...When I open my eyes today..
...I look back at my journey ..!!
... weakest moments which still shiver my soul..
..I looked at myself how boldly I stood with them..
.. laughing moments which still pains my stomach & brings tears to my eyes...!!!
.. moment when I fall apart from inside & looked at my dying hope holding my fallen parts..!!!.
..I looked at my moment when I flied on wings of success...!!!
......and my best pal stood behind me with smile on his face...
..though so far I have to go ...!!!.
..yet when I look at my past I get the light to face any obstacle in future..!!
..I keep on moving with best moments in hearts so that I can treasure them ..!!
and my weakest moment so that I keep learning from them what mistakes I did...!!

..Just drag me away from here..

Just drag me someone away from here....

I am standing on deserted land

Bleeding bodies muddled in sand

I am all drenched in utter pain

Hands fastened in rusty chain

Just drag me someone away from here....

Sky above is screaming madly

Tides below are grieving sadly

Stars are shivering with deathless fear

Clouds are vibrating with countless tears

Just drag me someone away from here......

Oh God !! Thou shall tell what blunder I did?

Thou shall only tell whom did I plunder ??

If this is the reward for following you ideally

If this is the award for trusting you blindly

Then I don't need anybody to drag me from here

Then I won't scream anymore to go somewhere

I will stand here till the last breath I hold

I will stand here till my soul wreath & mold

...Today i waited for you till dawn...

...As the rays of sun filtered through my curtains...
....Your thoughts gently touch my eyes and ....
.... I wake up with smile on my face...
...I danced like a bird with the wings stretched across the sky...
.. I threw blossoming flower all around...
.....I filled the whole house with fragrance...
...Today i waited impatiently for you till dawn...

... I leaned out of the window thousand of time...
.. I screamed out at every single ring of phone..
... I turned the watch upside down...!!!
....I just ran on toes at knock at my door..!!!
today i waited impatiently for you till dawn...

... I was lost in your thought all the day..!!!
I just sat smiled at all dull days...!!!
... I just sat and cried at all beautiful days..!!!
... I touched you endlessly to my heart..!!
today i waited impatiently for you till dawn...

I sat at my window for the whole day...!!!
I saw sun setting & dawn coming...!!!...
I saw flower shedding & fragrance loosing..
I saw the darkness engulfing my wings..!!!
...But still i waited impatiently for you till dawn...

..tum shayad kahin nahi..!!!

Suni si ek raah,

us par gharein se kuch nishaa,

kisi ki sahami hui yaadon ke..

sisakte hu kuch waadon ke..

dard se karhaati hui roshni...

dhuein main dhundlati se ek khushi..

aankhon ko bhigoti hui kuch boondee..

kaano se gujarti hui kuch awazee..

kisi ke aane ki woh aahat...

waqt ke ruk jaane ki woh chahat..

woh dubta hua suraj..

woh sharmate hue sitare..

sukhe patoo se khelti hui woh hawa...

khidki se jhakti hui woh raatein..

chupkee se yaad aati hui woh baatein..

Asmaan ko chune ki woh koshish..

kisi ko paaney ki woh khuwaish

haathon main simti si ek lakir..

aankhon main chippi si ek tasveer..

woh khud hi rhuthna..

woh khud hi manana..

woh mutthi main band kuch sapne..

woh bichadee hue kuch apne..

gujarta hua har pal yuhi..

bheka hua kuch-kuch kahin..

khamosh si hai lahree sabhi..

khoo gayi zindgi kahin..

tham sa gaya sab kuch..

par waqt hai pata nahi kuch..

hu aaj bhi 'main' wahin-kahin...

aur 'tum' shayad kahin nahi kahin nahi...

:-written in 2004

..Gitanjali

'He came and sat by my side

but I woke not.What a cursed sleep it was,O miserable me !!

He came when the night was still,

He had his harp in his hand,

and my dreams become resonant with its melodies..

Alas,why are my night all thus lost? Ah,why do I ever miss his

sight whose breath touches my sleep?'

-Rabindranath Tagore

Gitanjali

!!...Ajnabee apna saa....!!

..Ajnabee saa ek shakhs mila..!!!
...kuch pareshaan saa kuch hairaan saa...!!!
...ek mord par khada tanha saa..!!
...humne dheere se apne kadam bada diye..!!!
...uske saath kuch pal ke liye chal diyee..!!!
...pal bhar main hi uski tanhaiyon ko mita diya..!!!
...aapni aankhon se usse sapne dhikee..!!!
...usse unchaaiyon ka shikar dikaya..!!!
...uske viraane ko roshan kar diya...!!
..uske har ek aansu ko apni palko par rakh liya..!!
..dhundlatein sapno ko roshan kar diya..!!!
..kuch pal main who ajnabee apna sa hogaya..!!
...dheere-dheere apne sapno ko roshan karne laga..!!!
...apne sapno ko pura karne ki daud main..!!
...who hamee bhulata chala gaya..!!!
...aur hum palko main ayi boondo par muskara diye..!!!
...usne duniya main khud ko yun roshan kiya..!!!
...ki bheed main hum khud ko hi dhund na paye..!!
...khud ko bahut chota paya uske shikar see...!!
...phir bhi khush thee uski khushiyon ko dekh..!!!
...hum jaante thee usse bheed main hum koh chuke hai..!!
..waqt nee phir yeh karwat li hai..!!!
...har yaad ko uske jahan se mita diya hai..!!!
...uski aankhon main uchahiyon ki chamak hai..!!!
...humare saath bitaye do pal ke safar ki nahi..!!
...hum apni bheegi palkee liyee...khud ko bheed se bachate hue..!!
..apni tanha rahain par chal diye...!!
...uskee har pal ko samet-tey chal diye..!!
...kuch pal chale to door ek shakhs ko dekha..!!
...tanha sa..pareshaan saa..!!..
...kuch kadam aage badaee to pechana yeh wahi tha...
...ajnabee apna sa..!!..hamare kadmo se kadam milate chal diya..!!
...uski aankhon main khud ko dhunda to hamesha ki tarah wahin paya..!!!
...hum muskara diye...!!..orr kadam badate chal diye uske saath..!!!
...har pal muskurate...har pal itraate...!!...us apne se ajnabee ke saath..~!!!